This time 2 weeks ago I was just returned from what I would describe as one of the most intense experiences of my life. Words cannot possibly do justice to what I experienced on the ragged tops of the welsh mountain in my Quest; they could never capture the ineffable quality of the feelings, thoughts and impressions of this inner (and outward) journey. I learned so much about myself and I returned, above all else with a feeling of knowing exactly who I am, what my work is in this world and equally, who I am not.
This sense of who I'm not is actually pretty crucial to my post today. We live in a modern world where advancing technology happens daily, amazing new discoveries occur all the time, and we have an openness and accessibility like no generation has ever known before to information, thoughts and feelings, opportunities, happenings and change. This isn't always a good thing though right? It's easy to become overwhelmed and to lose a sense of ones centre in such a fast paced world, and sometimes a paradoxical thing happens in such a fast flow, we move into inertia, almost paralysed by that sense of overwhelm. 'Who am I?' and 'what do I want?' become questions of confusion rather than hope. Vision Quests can help us find the answers to those questions on a deep soul level. Personally, I chose to work with my shamanic teacher whom I highly recommend, and you can find information about his work here. Chris is an impeccable teacher, a true 'hollow bone' and I'm most grateful that I became his student, for what I've learnt under his humble and skilful leadership is immeasurable.
In native cultures, Vision Quests are seen as rites of passage as integral to the community as eating, hunting or sleeping, but here in the west, we have very few of those ceremonies or acknowledgements to act as our anchors and our guiding lights. I knew about 3 months ago when I felt the call to this Rite of Passage that it would be life changing work; it was. I learned that I am courageous and determined way beyond my perceived and self imposed limitations. I learned that I can be still, not just for ten minutes in meditation, but for hours upon hours, and not just accept it but enjoy it. I sat, for 3 days and 3 nights in a ten foot diameter Sacred Circle with only water and the clothes on my back; thankfully, a small tent for shelter too - it was a Welsh Valley mountain after all and not an American desert - I was also about ten foot from a powerful stone circle once used for funerary rites, so a small death was probably inevitable! In this kind of intensity when one is totally alone with oneself and no distraction, no time pieces, nothing but you, the only thing you can do really is face yourself or go mad trying! By the third day of praying hard for visions, of approaching life and my quest with a 'hungry heart' and a humble prayer, I knew more about myself than I had learnt in years, and my life work became crystal clear. We're not advised to discuss the contents of our Quests for at least a year, so I won't share details here, but what I do want to say is, be brave and go to your depths. Be brave and discover what makes you who you are, and let go of who you are not. Find the help and support you need and do your inner work. We are here but for a moment in time, and we do this for "All Our Relations" because when we heal ourselves, the work we do reaches back into our ancestral karma, that which has got before and that which is still to come. Forgiveness and self mastery are powerful things.
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